Well folks I am up refusing to go to bed once again, which is the inspiration for most of my blog entries. I really do hate going to bed for some reason. I think I like to extend the day out as long as I can because the beginning of the day is so unpleasant, with all the annoying alarm sounds and the realization that you have to get up and do things, and not sleep in your nice, warm, comfy bed. It doesn't matter what time it is either, getting up for something at ten can be just as bad as getting up for something at 5:30. I 've done both and they both can suck...........

As a warning to all the straight guys out there, don't wear a turtleneck sweater unless you want every gay guy within a 5 block radius hitting on you. I swear it is the like the gay man's mini-skirt. Ever since I got one and started wearing it, I have been getting hit on more than I ever have, and that even includes back when I was pretending to be straight..........

One of the little joys of my life (and i think of most people's lives) is noticing and appreciating the good looking people around you. It's sort of like window shopping. You like what you see very much, you know that you probably will not actually ever be with the person in any romantic sense, but you also don't feel any painful regret either. It's amazing how beautiful ordinary people can be too. Like you see people knowing they won't make a career in modeling or something, but for you rigjt there at that moment, they seem like a perfect creature. There's this one guy who has caught my eye on Bay State the past year who is just amazingly handsome. He has this simple grace about him, his clothes are very casual, his hair is not gelled or anything, and his face is very simple, with a serious, focused expression. Our paths will never cross, and it's no gigantic thrill to see him. But like the trees when the leaves change colors, or like that whisper of a song you hear from somebody's room that just brings you back to some place special, he lightens up the day a little bit. Sometimes you don't even know the little bits of happiness you bring to people's lives.