John McCain and Colin Powell are douchebags.

There, I said it. I have grown increasingly frustrated with people who claim that somehow John McCain and Colin Powell are any better than George Bush, and that though they might be Republicans, they secretly wish that better policies could be put in place for the United States. However, facts are facts and no matter how much we may wish they secretly are on our side, the fact is that for whatever reason that have chosen to stand with the George Bush, whose policies have led to over a thousand American deaths in Iraq, hatred abroad, and increasing division over social issues at home. In my veiw, if they actually do have faith and respect the leadership of George Bush, then politically they are douchebags. If they secretly believe something different and for their own political gain they have kept silent, then they are REAL douchebags of the worst sort. I will not continue to praise, and will never vote for, two people who are either right wingers, like Bush, or political and moral cowards unwilling to use their position of power and influence to help change the world for the better.

School has come, and hopefully more frequent blogging will follow. I have missed updating my blog, and being able to look over at it to see what comments people have about my entries, and getting random IMs or comments at parties about how much people love my latest blog entry. The truth is though, that over the summer I didn't feel I grew very much or learned anything new about myself. I basically just worked alot, made some money, and kind of kicked back intellectually. Except for a few key points during the summer, I didn't explore my life or think about it as much. I just kind of took it as it was, accepting that my life was somewhat in neutral until I got back to school. I guess there is a time and a place for that, but now the time has come to explore more and to grow further as a person, and I am really happy about that.

Going into this school year I think I have finally become comfortable enough with myself and with who I am that I am able to put myself out more into situations to meet people or to try new things. Being places where I don't know that many people has become less awkward for me, and I find myself to be increasingly less self critical in such situations. I remember as a freshman, and even sometimes as a sophomore, being at a party or something where I didn't know people that well, and ticking off every possible thing that people could find wrong with me. I couldn't speak because I was afraid that people would think I was a moron or uncool or some other silly thing. So in many situations I would come off as a basketcase or I just wouldn't be noticed. Hence I never met all that many people. At some point, though, I realized that being afraid all the time never did anything for me. It didn't prevent all that much embarrassment; it just caused me to be isolated from others, and to not meet people that I might actually like.

I still think I have some self confidence issues that pop up once in a while, but with the help of some great people I think I am starting to truly believe that I really do have alot to offer, and even some funny, insightful stuff to say.