I've been jealous by the attention that other journals get so I'm creating my own. I aslo feel I don't write enough anymore. I used to write alot in high school and I used to be proud of what I wrote, but when you are an economics major, as I am, you don't get many opportunities to express yourself through writing. Also, I feel people who know me don't know me very well. Its very hard for me to really connect with people, and I often find myself either putting up walls with people or being very awkward. Ah well.

I'm not very good at introductions, and I feel like most of the people who read this will know me anyway so I'll just jump right in to recent happenings/thoughts.

I went to NYU this weekend for debate, and it was quite fun. Debate tournaments come in two forms:the ones that make me feel like I should not be in debate, and the ones that make me want to come back. This one was of the latter kind. Megan and I did very well. We went 4-1, which I have never done before, and Megan won 11th place speaker at NYU, which is a big deal and awesome for her. The fun stuff was also good. Everybody who went was fun to hang out with and pretty chill, and there were no major disasters. So, all was good.

I also got to continue to get to know the Brandeis team, who are just the nicest people in the world. Brian from Brandeis in particular is just extremely nice, and reminds me of my friend Colin from back home in that they both don't have a bad word to say about anyone (which is just extremely hard to do) and they could make an even the most awkward of people feel comfortable around them.

Debate has made me very disconnected with my college. I got into it very early in college, and originally intended it as just another way to meet people. It just sucked me in though. Soon, I was spending lots of time and effort on it, and I haven't really let up since. It has really been great for me in a lot of ways. I've met so many awesome people that I would not have met otherwise, and I've gone to places I never would have gone to. However, I also feel like I went in too fast and never met enough people around here because it just became easy to not make the extra effort that I needed to make to meet people. I lived in upperclassman housing and didn;t have tons of freshmen all around. I don't know though, maybe I'm just a loner in general.